Things to Do - Que Sera Sera

Life has taken a lot of unexpected twists and turns lately, nothing bad, good things really, but a lot of long-buried stuff has been brought to the surface and forced to dry out, so to speak. Reminding me that it's not a good idea to hold grudges, as the future is so tricky, so tough to predict. Do you ever feel that way?

Something happened the other week that I need to remind myself about in TEN YEARS. and I can't figure out how to do this, maybe I need outlook or something, but my old school daily planners don't cover ten years into the future. How odd, in ten years we'll be undertaking driving lessons with F, dealing with P's jealousy over that fact. T will be 12. Who know what I'll be doing.

I went out for drinks the other night with a neighbor whose good friend died in Iraq, where he agreed to consult on setting up school systems, he left behind a wife and two young children. In T's summer camp class one of the toddlers just lost a baby sibling to SIDS. Lately I can't stop thinking about surface shifts, how in just milliseconds "normal" can change forever. I read an article the other day talking about how patients diagnosed with deadly cancers feel this tug overnight, this feeling of "but what do you mean I'm dying? Yesterday I was walking the dog." I suppose we went through that with my dad, but I was too in the moment to reflect on any of it. Until now, I guess.

The other day I told F she was growing up too fast, so she said (as only a 5 year old can), "adults don't like when kids grow up because they know that means they're getting old and their faces will get wrinkly and their backs will hurt more, right mama?" Then P threw in "and they'll probably get cancer too." Then we talked about what we wanted for dinner.

Soule Mama posted this Mary Oliver poem earlier this week, I really like it:
"Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
With your one wild and precious life?"
~ Mary Oliver

HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND EVERYONE!! I'll back next week with more normal things to say, do, and make.